Its been awhile

That's a great song, don't you think? I can't even remember who its by or what its called, but I know its good. My favorite song of the moment has to be "Hey there Delilah" by The Plain White Tees. Its not because the vocals are great or even because the music sounds amazing, its just the lyrics. I could sing them all off by heart. I mainly love how Delilah is a real girl and the song was written for her. I wish I had a song written for me. (that song by Underoath or The Calling don't count) haha But seriously, it tells of the guy's love and devotion for her, how even though they're miles apart he believes that someday they will be together again. Honestly, I still haven't met a guy like that yet. One who will share his feelings and love for a girl so openly.

Even though that's my favorite song, TPT's are so not my favorite band. That spot is taken by +44. Seriously. I love them. So much. Their lyrics are so amazing, they definitely do speak to me. And Travis Barker is, just, WOW on the drums. haha, yeah I'm gonna be listening to the on the way to work today! For once I can do that because I have my mom's car. Whoohoo. lol

I think I'm gonna go take a bath.

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these days, i'm a different person. i wish i could explain it....well i could, but that would just take to long. i spend way to much time in the kitchen, and not enough time doing my pre-calc. why? because a chef doesn't need to know what "x" equals. i don't even care what it equals. why would i? it's not like solving the equation would change my life, or someone elses dramatically, would it? no it wouldn't. so that's why i spend all my free time finding recipes, and cooking. or maybe i'm doing it because i'm stressed out and upset, not because i hate math. But it's mostly a combination of the two.

The present remblings of my teenaged mind

I was going to post awhile back, but I had nothing postworthy to say
So I didn't
Life has been....hectic
...stressful
...confusing
...annoying
...weird
or maybe it was
...wierd
Same difference
This doesn't make much sense
Does it
I hate shopping
I hate being around other people
It just reminds me how overweight I am
Does that make me antisocial
Maybe
But I can't change that
...well I guess I could
I like rambling
It gets all my thoughts out
I love cake
Seriously
I love cooking
Trying new recipes
Even just reading them
...imagining the taste
...the texture
...the smell
I also love magicians
And illusionists
They are amazing
I wish I knew their secrets
I love secrets too
I have too many of them
Until today Rick Mercer had a secret I didn't know
He's gay
Amazing
I know
I was shocked
Would never have guessed it
But I guess maybe thats old news
But its new to me
This post is going nowhere
I guess it didnt really start anywhere either
I like that
Starting nowhere
Going nowhere
Just being
Here
With you
Without you
Thinking of you
Thinking of the future
Thinking of your future
Thinking of my future
Wondering if they'll be the same thing
Hoping that they will
Wishing that they will
But just not being sure
Of anything

i wish i could...

crash a car (to have the experience)
skip school (with my friends)
shoplift (to feel the adrenaline)
be in a fist fight (to see if i would win)
sneak out of my house (just to have a secret)
go on a blind date (even though i would be so nervous)
lay on my back and watch the clouds go by (it seems so childish, yet i never did it)
go moshing at a huge concert (it would be the best time ever)
make prank phone calls (to all of my teachers at 2:00 in the morning)
catch a snowflake on my tongue (it would be so magical)
dance in the rain (it would be romantic)
write a letter to Santa Claus (and get a reply)
be kissed (under mistletoe)
watch the sunrise (on a beach in jamaica)
jump off a bridge (and not get hurt)
sit on a rooftop (and number the stars)
push someone into a pool (with all their clothes on)
be told i'm hot (by a complete stranger)
crash a partizzle (foshizzle)

Well...

So it's been a week. since my last post
Not much has changed. in these past 7 days
Life is life. still
I guess I can't complain. about much
I've got some great friends. like my sisters
I've got an awesome boyfriend. love him to death
I beat Tom at sudoku a few times. i cheated
I'll be sweet sixteen in sixteen. that's pretty sweet
Mackenzie is coming out tomorrow. for spring break
But drama pretty much sucks. cause people aren't committed
I've been eating way too much lately. i'm really hungry
I went to the doctor yesterday. that was fun
I'm going for a physical too. in june
Do you want to know why? just because
If I had my way I wouldn't go. they scare me
Yeah. i'm weird like that