But its time to face the truth....

I will never be with you. ( I love james blunt. he's so passionate) Yeah, I've decided that unless he (no not james blunt) steps up and is a man, our relationship is going nowhere. It feels like I'm the only one trying and working in this relationship. It's like, if I'm there, its cool but he's not trying to get me there. Do most guys always seem clueless like that?

"All these girls are innocent until proven slutty"..oh MTV

"Why is she wearing a bikini?!? WHY?!? Oh right, it's MTV and they're ALL SLUTS!!" lol that was so funny. We were watching "Next" on MTV and the girl was wearing a bikini for no reason. It's a really stupid show, I don't suggest watching it unless you're up for a good laugh and it's late at night. It has to be both. They take a guy or girl and pick 5 guys or girls for them to go on dates with. If they don't like one person they can say "Next" and see the next person. But the 5 people can get money for everyone minute they stay on the date. In the end one person gets a choice between the money and another date. But yeah, one girl said that she's scared of ladybugs because they're poisonous. Why wouldn't someone have told me this before now?! I've probably almost died from ladybug poisoning! lol It's too late at night to be blogging. I say stupid things or things I regret when I'm tired. Yeah so, then it was like, midnight and Allison went to bed and I was gonna too. But then I saw the opening of the next "Next" show and it was a gay next! It was the weirdest thing I've ever seen. In the end the guy took the money instead of the date but I'm sure he's gonna get together with another contestant. Aww one of the guys is crying now because he didn't get the girl. OMG!! Now they're playing Relient K!!! This is now my favorite show! And the guy and girl that got together are both Christian!! We all need to watch late night MTV together sometime. It's the bombdiggity. Did I just say that? yeah I need sleep....

It's Not A Side Effect Of The Cocaine. I'm Thinking It Must Be Love

lol Fall Out Boy sure has some funny names for songs.

-It's not a side effect of the cocaine. I'm thinking it must be love
-Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.
-I've got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth
-I slept with someone from Fall Out Boy and all I got was this stupid song written about me
-Our lawyer made us change the name of this song so that we wouldn't get sued
-Pretty in punk
-Reinventing the wheel to run myself over
-Sending postcards from a plane crash (wish you were here)
-The pros and cons of breathing
-The world's not waiting (for five tired boys and a broke down van)

I hate my hair

So I've decided I need to do something with my hair. I really want to perm it, but like a loose curl (like kaitlan's. yes, I'm insanely jealous of your hair!), maybe a bit tighter than Kaitlan's. because then in the morning it would be like, wash my hair, throw in some mousse, do my make-up, get dressed and run out the door. It would save alot of time that I spend yelling at my hair because it won't do what I want it to. lol But my hairdresser said that she'll just show me how to work with my natural curl to curl it with products so that I can have it straight if I want to. But I don't want it straight, it looks retarded.

How to tell?

How can you tell if a guy likes you or not? How do you know if he's really into you or if you're just a hook-up? I've been wondering this for like, the past couple of weeks. I still haven't figured it out, but I have thought of ways to tell. Do you....

-judge the way he acts and talks around you?
-come right out and ask him?
-say you like him and see if he says "ya I like you too" or sit through some awkward silence or painful rejection?
-get one of your friends to ask him?
-just assume that he does and go from there? (but we all know what assuming does)

yeah, those are basically my options. but i'm not sure which one to do. does someone want to tell me what to do?

Accepted

So yesterday Jodi, Curtis, Allison and I went into Brandon. Jodi drove us and we amazingly only almost died once. We were gonna leave at 1:00 but it took us until 2:30 to get ready (by us, I mean allison). So yeah we went to walmart and saw my aunt and her kids and sister and mom. Then we went shopping, but I didn't buy anything. Curtis got his hair cut. and we went to Applebee's for supper. Then we went and saw the movie and it was so funny. I'm buying it and Taladega Nights when they come out. Everyone should go and see Taladega Nights too. But nobody else was laughing during the funny parts of Accepted, so we felt like tools. That's what my day was spent on yesterday and now today we have a family supper to go to in Minnedosa. YAY!! not really, its usually boring and I end up eating too much.

Bachelor Girl

Ok so I found these lyrics on someone's blog and decided to check on the band. They don't really sound that good but I like the lyrics and what they say. The first one is called "Buses and Trains". Its about falling in and out of love and the emotional rollercoaster of it. But even though it hurts we'll still do it again.

"Buses and Trains"

Hey Mom
Why didn't you tell me
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two
You just let me go
Out into the World
You never thought to share what you knew

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone

Chorus x2

I wanna do it again
Oh, felt so good

Hey Mom
Since we're talking
What was it like when you were young
Has the world changed
Or is it still the same
A man can kill and still be the sweetest fun

The second song is called "Lucky Me". I like it because it has a good message. She's sarcastically singing about all the things she has and how lucky she is but she never is happy.

"Lucky Me"

I've got an ex-boyfriend who calls me up,
To blame me for his life.
I get bunches of roses, from another guy
And hate mail from his wife.
I date a stupid jerk who forgets my name,
Likes to make love while watching TV.
And some guy calls in the middle of the night,
Just so I can hear him breathe

Lucky Me,
Lucky, Lucky Me
I have everything in this whole wide world,
A girl could ever need, Lucky Me

I've got a great car,
It's a red convertible, made by Mattel.
Got a nice house in the suburbs,
With 'Hell's Angels' for neighbours as well.
I've got a scholarship for a hundred years of college
I wanna study dentistry,
But my folks just want me married,
And popping out the grand kids,
To keep them company

Chorus

Lucky, lucky little old me
I have everything in this whole wide world
A girl could ever need, Lucky Me

(Lucky Me, Lucky Me)

I think I wanna join the Hare Krishnas,
Give up all my worldly goods, cut off all my hair.
There's nothing that I have right now that brings me any joy,
When I'm shopping at the mall, can't find it anywhere.

But I've got my tamagotchi,
And I've got my wristwatch phone.
I got so many friends on the internet,
I could never be alone.
I've got just enough cash to pay a lot of tax,
But not enough to quit my job.
Got a fool's gold ring and credit card debt,
Psychiatrist for my dog.

Lucky Me
Lucky, Lucky Little Old Me
I have everything in this whole wide world
A girl could ever need, Lucky Me


So yeah, they're my group of the day. And to make them even better, they're from Australia.

Scribble

LOL do this its fun. Allison's a level 4

Stay off the side walks...lol

lol. Jodi got her liscense! Now the Loser Cruiser is officially hers. lol, so congrats again Jodi. And I got to ride with her first. lol I'm in a surprisingly good mood right now. Joel Plaskett usually does that lol. wow I just re-read that and that is way too many LOL's. It kinda sounds like I'm on drugs lol

You're sick!

Allison eats prunes. They're gross and smell like sick That's all I have to say. Oh and congrats JODI!!! You finally got it! Now you can drive me to Brandon!

i wish..

So yeah, this is completely new to me. I guess I'll just write about my day, thoughts on life, whatever comes to mind.....I wish I didn't eat so much and had more energy to excercise. I wish I could drive. I wish I wasn't so shy. I wish I didn't live in the middle of nowhere. I wish I knew what to write about...I wish I could read people's minds, so I knew exactly what they think of me. I don't wish I could go back in time...except for some things. I wish it was next summer. I wish I was at the Folk Fest, not working. I wish I could see into the future. I wish I knew what to say and how to say it. I wish I could go nowhere with you. I wish I could sing..good. I wish I knew Joel Plaskett. I wish I was done school. I wish I could decide what to do with my life. I wish I was cooler. I wish there weren't any flies. I wish I was more talkative and open with people. I wish country music would die. I wish I could win the lottery...or get a good, fun job. Or both. I wish I had gone to camp. I wish I had blonde and pink hair. I wish I had my lip pierced. I wish I could live forever. I wish I was good at sports. I wish I was a little bit shorter. I wish my feet were smaller. I wish I was a nicer person. I wish I could draw. I wish Drama was started. I wish I didn't play basketball. I wish I knew more people. I wish we had a bigger drama club. I wish we had our own theatre. I wish I could go to a drive in theatre. I wish I spoke Italian. I wish I wasn't sitting in my basement right now. I wish things would always go as I planned. I wish I didn't lie about some things. I wish I never have kids. I wish some people would go away....I wish I had never said that. I wish I was a rockstar. I wish my room wasn't so ugly. I wish I didn't have to babysit. I wish I could go quading more...and I wish I was Micheal J. Fox....LOL...but mostly I wish someone could read my thoughts and tell what the right thing to do is.