How to live my life to the fullest

OK, so I don't actually know how to do that. I try, but I don't think I'm accomplishing it.

I want to take each day slowly, and savour the moments.
But being a college kid, especially in culinary, doesn't really let you do that. Its always go, go ,go, go ,go. and then sleep.

So two months in and I'm already feeling burnt out. I feel like if I do have spare time, I should be planning for my next rotation (finding recipes/plating designs), or working on various projects due in 1 month, or two months time.

I'm basically feeling stressed out, and unhappy. And the fact that I'm too busy with stupid school to have a social life, with people here or at home or across the country/world, makes me feel more unhappy.

And in respect to relationships, I would love to live with no regrets. To make contact/do what my heart is telling me. But then I'm too scared. Scared I'm wrong, and I'll embarrass myself, and make things awkward.

So I don't really know how to talk to people any more, because I'm worried I'll look like an idiot, or I just don't have the energy to put into trying to have a conversation.

Blah! I hate winter. It starts cooling off outside and I get in a really bad mood

And this was completely random, and strange. And pretty much just my brain over flowing. Sorry