Its been awhile

That's a great song, don't you think? I can't even remember who its by or what its called, but I know its good. My favorite song of the moment has to be "Hey there Delilah" by The Plain White Tees. Its not because the vocals are great or even because the music sounds amazing, its just the lyrics. I could sing them all off by heart. I mainly love how Delilah is a real girl and the song was written for her. I wish I had a song written for me. (that song by Underoath or The Calling don't count) haha But seriously, it tells of the guy's love and devotion for her, how even though they're miles apart he believes that someday they will be together again. Honestly, I still haven't met a guy like that yet. One who will share his feelings and love for a girl so openly.

Even though that's my favorite song, TPT's are so not my favorite band. That spot is taken by +44. Seriously. I love them. So much. Their lyrics are so amazing, they definitely do speak to me. And Travis Barker is, just, WOW on the drums. haha, yeah I'm gonna be listening to the on the way to work today! For once I can do that because I have my mom's car. Whoohoo. lol

I think I'm gonna go take a bath.

x

these days, i'm a different person. i wish i could explain it....well i could, but that would just take to long. i spend way to much time in the kitchen, and not enough time doing my pre-calc. why? because a chef doesn't need to know what "x" equals. i don't even care what it equals. why would i? it's not like solving the equation would change my life, or someone elses dramatically, would it? no it wouldn't. so that's why i spend all my free time finding recipes, and cooking. or maybe i'm doing it because i'm stressed out and upset, not because i hate math. But it's mostly a combination of the two.

The present remblings of my teenaged mind

I was going to post awhile back, but I had nothing postworthy to say
So I didn't
Life has been....hectic
...stressful
...confusing
...annoying
...weird
or maybe it was
...wierd
Same difference
This doesn't make much sense
Does it
I hate shopping
I hate being around other people
It just reminds me how overweight I am
Does that make me antisocial
Maybe
But I can't change that
...well I guess I could
I like rambling
It gets all my thoughts out
I love cake
Seriously
I love cooking
Trying new recipes
Even just reading them
...imagining the taste
...the texture
...the smell
I also love magicians
And illusionists
They are amazing
I wish I knew their secrets
I love secrets too
I have too many of them
Until today Rick Mercer had a secret I didn't know
He's gay
Amazing
I know
I was shocked
Would never have guessed it
But I guess maybe thats old news
But its new to me
This post is going nowhere
I guess it didnt really start anywhere either
I like that
Starting nowhere
Going nowhere
Just being
Here
With you
Without you
Thinking of you
Thinking of the future
Thinking of your future
Thinking of my future
Wondering if they'll be the same thing
Hoping that they will
Wishing that they will
But just not being sure
Of anything

i wish i could...

crash a car (to have the experience)
skip school (with my friends)
shoplift (to feel the adrenaline)
be in a fist fight (to see if i would win)
sneak out of my house (just to have a secret)
go on a blind date (even though i would be so nervous)
lay on my back and watch the clouds go by (it seems so childish, yet i never did it)
go moshing at a huge concert (it would be the best time ever)
make prank phone calls (to all of my teachers at 2:00 in the morning)
catch a snowflake on my tongue (it would be so magical)
dance in the rain (it would be romantic)
write a letter to Santa Claus (and get a reply)
be kissed (under mistletoe)
watch the sunrise (on a beach in jamaica)
jump off a bridge (and not get hurt)
sit on a rooftop (and number the stars)
push someone into a pool (with all their clothes on)
be told i'm hot (by a complete stranger)
crash a partizzle (foshizzle)

Well...

So it's been a week. since my last post
Not much has changed. in these past 7 days
Life is life. still
I guess I can't complain. about much
I've got some great friends. like my sisters
I've got an awesome boyfriend. love him to death
I beat Tom at sudoku a few times. i cheated
I'll be sweet sixteen in sixteen. that's pretty sweet
Mackenzie is coming out tomorrow. for spring break
But drama pretty much sucks. cause people aren't committed
I've been eating way too much lately. i'm really hungry
I went to the doctor yesterday. that was fun
I'm going for a physical too. in june
Do you want to know why? just because
If I had my way I wouldn't go. they scare me
Yeah. i'm weird like that

Am I a M*A*S*H Junkie?

Today I was sick.
I slept till noon.
I read an overdo library book.
It was a gooder.
About 9/11.
Then I drank some tea.
And ate some soup.
I also watched M*A*S*H.
For 3 hours.
That's six episodes.
Now it's stuck in my head.
The voices.
The scenes.
The laughter.
The music.
Hawkeye....
Wooo that's some hotstuff.
Trapper.
Radar.
Frank.
HotLips.
Henry.
Tuttle.
The long-johns.
lol.
I wish you all knew what I was laughing about.
I wish we were all as close as we used to be.
I wish we all still got along.
I wish I still liked all of you.
I wish I didn't have to pretend that I still do.
I wish I could be like Radar.
I wish I could share my secrets.
I wish I knew what to do with my life.
I wish we were all M*A*S*H Junkies

Post #100

So this is my 100th post. I've decided to make it about M*A*S*H. lol yup I'm a dork. But yesterday my cousins, Allison and I sat around and watched the first season of it. It was alot of fun. I love that show. and don't say that I'm the only one, cause it's finale was the most watched TV show episode ever. Ever. So yeah, its a pretty sweet show. Ya'll should watch it sometime.

Thank you all

yay for movie nights. yay for my girl friends. yay for my guy friends. yay for weird british movies. yay for 3 am. yay for pancakes. yay for poker. yay for coffee. yay for understanding pre-calc. yay for my parents. yay for good advice. yay for perserverance. yay for turkey dinners. yay for M*A*S*H. yay for cat. yay for youth group. yay for punching experiments. yay for having a great weekend

Starting Over

Look at your face, it doesn’t shine the way it used to
Look at your eyes, they don’t sparkle anymore
Look what you’ve done, you’ve ruined it for everyone
Who told you that you had to lose your innocence

(I can begin)
I’m starting over
(Again)
I’m starting over

Now tell me how, I get back to my childhood
I used to think it was so naive, I was so naive

Look what I’ve done
I’ve ruined it for everyone
I should have held on harder to my innocence

It’s never too late
It’s never too late for starting over

Reclaim your innocence, start over
Reclaim your innocence, reclaim you innocence
Start over, start over

Look at your face, it doesn’t shine the way it used to

I'm confused...

Where in the unwritten rules of everything, does it say that after you break up with someone you have to ignore eachother and you can't be friends? I've noticed this with absolutely every relationship that has crashed and burned around me. So maybe the two people weren't meant to be soulmates and grow old together but who says the can't still be friends? Huh? I think this is really unhealthy and creates alot of tension bewteen the two people and their friends. So why don't we all just get along? Maybe you weren't meant to be with him or her forever, why can't you make a friend out of them instead?

Happy valentine's day?

To such an awesome friend

Well, first of all you don't need a guy to make you feel perfect. You are perfect without them. Guys will come and go in your life until you find the perfect one and when you do don't let him go.

Ya they will give you hugs and kisses, they might listen to you and give you their shoulder to cry on but I as your friend can give you this;
A shoulder to cry on
An ear to listen
A person to hug
A truth to keep secrets
The space to give when you're needing to think, and
A heart to care for you when your down, worried, scared, confused, given up hope, happy and hurt.

I know your sisters, Shannon, closest friends, and I will and can give you all this.
Valentine's Day isn't just about having a guy to give you things, but it is also for friends to tell each other that they are here for one another.

Happy Valentine's Day!

So be happy, healthy, caring, and have the best day of your life!!

From Someone Who Will
Always Be There For You

So I got a rose today. Along with this note. I actually almost started crying when I read it. I've been feeling really crappy and alone lately. Somehow this person knew that I needed to be reminded that my friends do still care. So for that, I thank you. I now know who sent it, but I don't know if they want me to tell everyone so I've kept their name out of it. Because of them this Valentine's day wasn't as crappy as I thought it would be.

The pursuit of happyness

is happyness only something you can pursue and never achieve? or will i someday be able to reach my grasp around it, hold it close, and feel its warmth? i don't know, but so far this pursuit has been long and tiresome

Rest in Peace Anna Nicole Smith

Anna Nicole Smith, the eccentric blonde whose life played out as an extraordinary tabloid tale — jeans model, Playboy centerfold, widow of an octogenarian billionaire, reality-show subject, tragic mother — died Thursday after collapsing at a hotel. She was 39.

She was stricken while staying at the Seminole Hard Rock Hotel and Casino and was rushed to a hospital. Edwina Johnson, chief investigator of the Broward County Medical Examiner's Office, said the cause of death was under investigation and an autopsy would be done on Friday.

Seminole Police Chief Charlie Tiger said a private nurse called 911 after finding Smith unresponsive in her sixth-floor room. He said Smith's bodyguard administered cardiopulmonary resuscitation about an hour before she was declared dead.

Isn't this horrible? She has a 5 month old daughter, and they don't know who the father is.

Sunburns, sailing, sandals, stingrays, snorkeling, swimsuits, shows, supper

I kinda took Jodi's theme and made it better for you. So these past 10 days have been the best of my life! No kidding! Well, except for the large amounts of food we ate everyday and the weight gain lol. Here's what a day in the life of Adrienne Lennox on the Carnival Victory cruise ship would look like. (keep in mind that this would be a "fun day" at sea)
1. Wake up at 8:00
2. Go for breakfast in the dining room at 8:30
3. Have pancakes, eggs, sausages, bacon, hash browns, fruit and pineapple juice (be done eating at 9:30)
4. Go lay in the sun on the Lido deck
5. Eat some ice cream at 11:00
6. Eat some fries at 11:30
7. Go for lunch in the dining room at 12:00-12:30ish (be done at 1:30ish)
8. Go lay in the sun again on the Lido deck
9. Wander around the ship looking for something to do at 2:30 because I'm now burnt and can't sit in the sun
10. Go have tea, desserts, sandwiches and listen to classical music at 3:30
11. Start getting ready for supper at 4:00
12. Go to supper at 5:45
13. Have a starter, entree, dessert, drink and hot chocolate
13B. Learn card tricks from Kirk and how to fold napkins from Pituck
14. Watch, listen, and videotape all of the waiters and waitresses dance and sing at the end of supper
15. Go wander around the promenade, getting our picture taken multiple times and looking at the jewelry and other shops at about 7:00
16. Go watch Bingo at 8:00
17. Watch the nightly show at 8:30 (this once involved my mom dancing onstage lol yes, there's a video of it)
18. Go change out of our formal wear, and head on up to the Lido deck at 10:30
19. Eat some ice cream at 10:45
20. Eat some fries at 11:00
21. Finish my eating for the day with some lemonade at 11:15
22. Head back to the room at 11:30 and watch a movie while going to sleep
23. Have a convo with Jodi while she's asleep (this happened nightly)
24. Go to bed and start the whole process over again tomorrow

So you can now see how much food we would eat in a day. And I would probably eat the least amount of food. But its free so you cant blame us lol
So on this trip I met the two most awesomest guys in the world. Kirk and Pituck. Kirk is from Trinidad and Pituck in from Thailand. They were so friendly, nice and funny. I also have them on video so you'll get to see them. They work on the ship as waiters. Pituck told us that they work 16 hour days for seven weeks at a time. No days off. Its horrible. Pituck is there so that he can make enough money to send back to his parents in Thailand. But even though they're working so much, they always seemed happy. Pituck actually told Nicole to go and hide in one of the lifeboats when we were leaving so that she could stay another week with him and Kirk. She didn't think it was that great of an idea lol.
Well I have to go get showered and ready to go because we're still in Fort Lauderdale. We're flying out of here at 1:00 and should be back in Winnipeg at 8:00pm and then we still have 3 hours to drive home. So we won't be back home until midnight at the earliest, if nothing goes wrong. But my past experience with NorthWest doesn't guarantee anything.

So thats what an airplane is like...pretty crappy

lol We haven't had that great of a beginning to our trip. Yesterday morning we got up at 4:30 am to leave our Uncle's place in Winnipeg and go to the airport. We got there, got our tickets, did our baggag check, made it through customs (although they spent alot of time checking our dad with the metal detector) and then sat around for half an hour. We got to board the plane at 6:50 am because we had Nicole. That was pretty sweet...until we had to wait until 10:30 to take off! lol That's right, we sat on the plane, on the runway for over 3 hours, to take a 1 hour flight. It was so retarded. After we took off I learnt that I have a horrible fear of heights, planes, and being off the ground. No, I didnt puke but I was soo scared. lol
Then we landed in Minneapolious (allison spellt that one for me) and have to run from gate C10 to C3 to get our our connecting flight because they were nice enough to hold it for us and afew other people. But then we got onto that plane and had to sit on it for another half hour before taking off. Then we got going and I had to sit through a flight that was over 3 hours long. But I just sat in the aisle seat, listened to my music and played cards with Allison to distract myself from knowing that I was in a plane. We got into Fort Lauderdale, found all of our luggage easily and called for a ride to our hotel. We went out for supper, walked around this huge city abit, bought some shoes for my dad lol and bought some drinks.
This is saturday morning and I'm gonna go eat some breakfast, get ready to go, and then our ride is coming to get us at 12:00 to take us to Miami and the cruise ship. There we'll stand around for a couple of hours before we actually get on the boat. I'm already having such an awesome time, I can't wait to get on the ship. I love you all!
*~Adrienne
(ps Krissi, I almost bought a pair of steve madden shoes [like your red ones from aldo] for only $50, but my mom wouldnt let me lol. And someone tell Carlyle that he needs to move here! I've seen like one white person since we got here and the rest are black or spanish. its a joke from the jazz band trip lol.)

I'm leaving, on a jet plane....

This is the last you will hear from me for ten days, unless I decide to spend money at the Internet Cafe, but really? Who would want to waste their time and money on a computer when there are way better things to do! lol So next week think of us, guys. While your writing your exams we'll be getting tanned and drinking mocktails! I know ya'll love me. I'm really excited for this trip. I need a break from this place so badly. And I'm so tired all the time, so this'll be a good time to catch up on my sleep.
I actually went to the doctor today, because I'm so tired. It was my mom's idea and I didn't totally disagree with it. So I went, even though I hate doctors and hospitals. But this doctor was totally cool! She's like 26 or something and really nice. So tomorrow in our way through Minnedosa, we have to stop so that I can do some blood tests. She wants to know if my Iron levels are low, cause that would make me tired.
So yeah, tomorrow should be a great day! But on the plus side, I'm finished Ag! Completely! lol I finished the last huge assignment a couple minutes ago. Nothing like leaving it to the last minute! lol So I hope you guys have an awesome time the next 10 days, I know I will! lol. But seriously, I know you really won't because I won't be here to brighten your day and put some excitement into your life! I love you all!
Bon Voyage!

(oh yeah! I'm gonna be video taping a lot of the trip with my snazzy new video camera, so ya'll will get to see our trip when we get back! I know you can't wait!)

Let's make a change

It's time for a change. And I want to change. But I don't know how to start, or where I'll finish. and the uncertainty of it all scares me. If I could, I would start over and do so many things differently. My life has become so boring, cold, and monotonous. I just want to get away, get away from all of my mistakes. I also need help. I don't know what aspect of my life to change. I want somebody to talk to. I know ya'll are going to say "You can talk to me" "I'll listen and help" and I know that's the truth. I could talk to all of you and you would listen, but I also know that a lot of you can't keep your mouths shut and you'll talk to someone else about it. So, I don't know who to go to. I just think that things need to change, before I go crazy. But you know what? It's never too late, for starting over.

this is a great way to kill my blog

Holy crap am I mad at Blogger! So yesterday I found this beautiful template that I loved, and I put it on my blog. Today I was playing around with my template and there was a button that said "Upgrade template" so I clicked it. Freaking wrong thing to do!!!! I didnt realize that it said "If your stupid enough to click this retarded button your pretty much an idiot so we're gonna go ahead and completely change your blog's template and there's no way you can change it back or edit it into anything remotely cool! mwahahaha! ight Adrienne" Yeah so now I can't put on templates that you find on BlogSkins.com, I have to use Blogger's skins. Which are way less beautiful and artistic. No offense to anyone who uses them, they just don't express me at all. So the moral of this story is to never ever ever press the "Upgrade Template" button.

Life isn't a dress rehearsal

Life isn't a dress rehearsal. I love this sentence, because its so true. You don't get a practice round. You don't get to come back and do this again. So live life to the fullest! But that doesn't mean, "go out and do something stupid". It means, if there's something you want to do, do it! Something you want to say? Say it! It doesn't matter what other people will think of you, your real friends won't judge you. Don't be shy! Don't be fake! People love you for you! If you love someone, let them know it! If you don't love them, that's cool. Whatever! It doesn't matter! Its showtime, so get out there and break a leg. Just make sure you do it all before the curtain call.

am i ready?

So another year has gone by, and another one has began. I really don't know if its a good thing. Sunday night, sitting in our living room with all of our friends, watching the countdown was kinda scary for me. 10-Am I ready?-9-I dont think so-8-NO! stop-7-I'd rather stay here forever-6-I don't want to grow up-5-I have no idea what I'm doing with my life-4-Stop! Please....-3-no no no-2-I'm not ready for this-1-i guess i cant stop time....happy new year?